Why I’m usually up at 3AM in no particular order:
- Someone is Snoring Loudly
- Cats. Cats are being loud.
- I’m thirsty.
- I had a weird dream and now I need to look something up
- I had a night terror and woke up screaming.
- I read somewhere waking up at 3AM is the perfect brain frequency for working on creative projects.
- I was born at around 3AM, so now I feel like it’s a “lucky” time for me.
So, what do I do with this time?
I use this as “extra” time. I can do whatever I want! If I want to draw, I draw. If I want to play a game, I game out. I exercise, do yoga, write, read about spiders. Whatever I want to do.
Sure, I could probably use it to work or do something “productive”, but I noticed when I try to do that, I get sleepy very, very fast. I need this time to be pressure free.
And that’s what works for me. Anyone else have this weird internal alarm clock thing happen to them?
What do you do with your “Extra” free time?
He did me a huge favor by impersonating all of my self doubt.
“Perhaps all the dragons in our lives are princesses who are only waiting to see us act, just once, with beauty and courage. Perhaps everything that frightens us is, in its deepest essence, something helpless that wants our love.” – Rainer Maria Rilke
- Racing thoughts – WRITE IT ALL OUT. It doesn’t need to be pretty, it doesn’t even need to make sense. Take a timer, set it for 5 minutes and just try to get out everything that’s in your mind. If the timer buzzes and you’re still writing, keep going and go until you can breathe again. If you finish before the timer, then say to yourself, “Wow, all the things I’m worried about fit into less than 5 minutes.”
- CLEAN something! Anything. And really take your time to see the difference. The floors work great for me, especially the corners, because you have to get on your hands and knees into “working posture”.
- Think about how much time you’ve spent being anxious. Say to yourself, “Something bigger than myself knows that this thing is bothering me – I’m going to trust in it that it will take care of me.” Trust in God, the Universe, Family, Community, whatever you believe in that’s bigger than yourself will help you realize you’re not alone and you don’t have to figure it all out yourself.
- Realize that sometimes, anxiety just happens for no reason at all. Once you stop looking for a reason, you break the cycle of “Why am I anxious?” Cut off the dialogue in your head with the anxiety. Instead, start a conversation with gratitude. “Why am I thankful today? What am I looking forward to in the future?”
Being anxious is a repetitious and addictive cycle that feeds off of itself.
“You have many habits that weaken you. The secret of change is to focus all your energy, not on fighting the old, but on building the new.”
- Curiosita (Insatiably curious approach to life)
- Dimostrazione (A commitment to test knowledge through experience, persistence, and a willingness to learn from mistakes)
- Sensazione (Continual refinement of the senses)
- Sfumato (A willingness to embrace ambiguity, paradox, and uncertainty)
- Arte/Scienza (Development of the balance between science and art, logic and imagination)
- Corporalita (Cultivation of grace, ambidexterity, fitness and poise)
- Connessione (Recognition of and appreciation for the interconnectedness of all things.
Really, the only energy left is a silence. This silence allows others to be themselves and allows you to understand and appreciate the people around you – even with all their flaws and inconsistencies.
Start with something small.
- What do you want from me?
- What do you need from me?
- How will you feel once you get what you need?
- How will you help me?
- What pledge do you make to me?
- How can I gain access to you?
Sometimes it helps to see how far we’ve come with ourselves to appreciate where we are.
The good news is, we can transform that monster back into it’s original shape and integrate it with ourselves again.
that we must always hold to the difficult, then that which now still seems to us the most alien will become what we most trust and find most faithful. How should we be able to forget those ancient myths about dragons that at the last moment turn into princesses; perhaps all the dragons of our lives are princesses who are only waiting to see us once beautiful and brave.