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2018 Goals

I feel like it’s a good start to stick to my word on things I say about 2018 – So, here I am. Outlining my goals for 2018 just like I said I would do on Tuesday.
Yep, that’s definitely a good start. 

2018 GOALS 

  • Dive into Passive Income Streams 

My store has just been sitting there collecting dust since I signed up I don’t even know how long ago. I see people making and selling Really cool stuff on this site all the time for other designers and non-designers all the time – I want to be one of those people!
Focus: Patterns, Textures, Objects, Business Card, Greeting Cards, Resumes, Stationary, Social Media, & Presentations …and Photography. …Maybe.
– Independent Artist Market sites (Zazzle, DBU, TeePublic
I’ve already become pretty active in a few of these,… actually, a few more than I listed, with very little success.
After investigating further, I see being interactive in the community makes a big difference. And I can’t be super active if I’m on like 12 different sites. 😃 I chose my favorites to be active in so I’m not spread too thin.
Focus: Tshirts, Stickers, Mugs, Notebooks, Cards, Packaging, Gifts

  • Keep Working Out my drawing, writing, and crafting skills

  • Set actual “Work Hours” 

– I hate saying, “I’m busy” when my family or friends want to do something. This year I constantly felt like I should be in another place, if I was outside my office, I felt like I should be in my office and vice versa. It’s a terrible feeling that I’d rather get rid of entirely.
Setting work hours would help me focus more on what I need to do because I’d have a limited amount of time to do it in (I.E. *Really Working* and not surfing facebook or watching Oxhorn’s Fallout 4 walkthroughs. I use this same technique with exercise – exercising “until I’m done” isn’t nearly as effective as “AAAAHHH I ONLY HAVE 30 MIN!

I’ve had a Patreon account for some time now (I’m a boss at signing up for accounts, setting up my banner and avatar, and then letting them sit there until the end of time), it’s only been until recently when I saw how my sister was using hers that I finally thought, “Oooh, so THAT’S how it works!” And it’s pretty awesome. AND I can actually use it to help keep me on top of the first two goals among other things.

  • Go Live 

My facebook live feed did a lot of great things for myself and others. It gave me more confidence, made things more ‘real’, and inspired some pretty great conversations. It even motivated one of my friends into pursuing her thought of opening her own store! It’s also possible to go live on Patreon. …which would be better in my opinion, because facebook is a black hole of distraction.

And that’s all I’m going to commit to because it’s 11:59 right now which means it will *technically* be Saturday when I post this.
One of my biggest obstacles with keeping to a time table is being legalistic about it. The Second biggest obstacle is the “all or nothing” mentality.
At least I know what I’m up against. Speaking of…

Goal Crushers to Fight/Ignore: 

  • Procrastination
  • Perfectionism
  • Comparison
  • Confusion
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A Long Road Ahead

It’s all too easy to forget how far we’ve come when we’re striving for something.
It’s even EASIER to do that when there’s no hard and steady target at the end.

I’m a big believer in the milestone and accumulative goal strategy. Like a lot of people, it’s very difficult for me to visualize what my ‘ultimate goal’ looks like, or even to verbalize. How in the world do you visualize something that doesn’t exist yet? 

I’ve never been the first in my class in anything. In fact, I was much more likely to be the kid who had to stay in on lunch, afterschool, and staying up late trying to finish a project so I could get a barely passing grade. I’m very familiar with failure and all the disillusion it brings. 
And I’m somewhat grateful for it. It’s the reason why I’m experience oriented and can appreciate the lows just as much as the highs. I always have fun along the way.

With the New Year fast approaching and resolutions spreading like wild-fire, I feel pressured to nail down some goals and reflect on what I’ve accomplished so far. I started thinking about this a few days ago when I read this post from a very insightful blog I read. Up until very recently, I haven’t been results driven at all. A results driven mindset is something I’m aiming for in 2018. I’m not thinking of it as a ‘new’ mindset, more like a complimentary one to my experience driven mind.

A Results mind is a puzzle – An Experience Mind is a freehand drawing.

When drawing or learning any new craft (or really anywhere in life) – the best way to learn is to be curious, try different things, copy, and make lots and lots of mistakes along the way. This is where I feel like I’ve been for the past several years – and now it feels like the time to put those pieces together. ...and still keep the curiosity alive.

I usually takes the slow route to something, inspecting and dissecting a thing from every angle before putting it to use. I love processing an idea until it’s mush. In a way, I almost dread actually achieving a goal because that’s the end of analysis – what if I’ve overlooked something? What if I didn’t understand something thoroughly enough? What if I missed a connection? These are the haunting thoughts I have to fight with faith that I’ll be enlightened along the way even after it’s over.

I’ve progressed quite a ways in design since the beginning – definitely not any where close to being at the ‘top of the class’, but enough so that I’m proud of myself and confident in my skills and even more than that – my ability to learn and keep learning. 

Lessons of 2017: 
  • Dedicated more time into hard skills like drawing and writing
  • Better organized myself and my projects using Trello and Wunderlist
  • Strengthened my skills in InDesign (aka – my ‘spider’ of design software)
  • Strengthened my speaking skills by doing a slew of Live Streams on facebook
  • Teamed up with a webdesigner friend to develop my website
  • Explored being a Project Manager for a Print Company 
  • Earned Around $8,000 via UpWork, LinkedIn, and Personal Outreach
  • Developed a personal fun project to keep myself motivated for all the boring projects that pay bills
  • Connected (and kept connections) with more people in my field
  • Developed stronger connection with family and friends thanks to my live streams, Glide, and reaching out

Goals for 2018: 
  • Adopt schedules and set/meet deadlines
  • More TBA on Friday 😉
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The Inside vs The Outside

I recently took some ‘glamour shots’ for my professional profiles thinking it was no big deal – but the feedback was really interesting and spurred on this analysis:

It wasn’t until I was around 25ish I started to come in to my own look and just go with it. I realized it was much less dramatic than I thought it would be – actually, downright boring. I was addicted to the struggle, the fear, the anxiety of trying too hard. In a morose way, I liked the drama of obsessing. When I decided to say, “Okay, I’m just going to do this and trust the process.” No beating myself, no self loathing, no constant comparison to other people, no standing in the mirror over analyzing every bit of extra flesh. Just cause and effect. I toned up, extra weight fell off, and there was nothing left to do.

The most anti-climactic win Ever. 

Then what? I’ve always gotten compliments because I smile all the time, so compliments were nothing new. I felt better in my own skin, but after about a week I was over it. It was Extremely disappointing to not have habitual goal to think about all the time. I knew I didn’t want to lose more weight or build muscle because I had done that before and didn’t like it. Chest bones are not pretty. And then you go from compliments to people openly saying rude things like, “Eat a sandwich.” So I had found my happy medium. But now what? I missed the drama, the obsession about a process.

Success is less dramatic than the journey there – and sometimes, even the journey there is boring. I believe this is part of why so many people don’t achieve their goals – especially physical goals. It can be highly disappointing when you get to the top and find there’s no where else to go, but down the other side.

About the age of 30, I decided beauty wasn’t all it’s cracked up to be. All you really get with being beautiful is compliments from the outside world and being confident in yourself (okay, so, that last one does help quite a bit!). I realized that unless I was going to be a model or something where I’m in the spotlight, good looks is really inconsequential. And I want to be more than just a pretty face. 

The process is the real treasure. Developing attributes like Patience, Will-Power, Focus, Resilience, and Determination. These ideals are easy to transfer in to any area of life once you have an area to relate.

Coincidentally, around the time I was having this epiphany- I took a challenge to do 2 weeks of live videos on Facebook saying one thing I’m thankful for. And I realized, I do Quite enjoy being in the spotlight! I don’t believe looks are completely under our control, a lot of it is the genetic lottery – so I can’t take credit for most of it. But I also don’t believe in squandering gifts, so I’m working on ways to incorporate where I already have my confidence to other places I’m working on building up. 

Turns out, looks do matter in this world despite how unimportant it can seem, so it’s good to be wise about it. And just like how you dress and look can attract/repel certain people in your personal life, the same is true when making a portfolio. I realized the “Look” of my portfolio doesn’t appeal to those projects I really want to work on. So, I’ve decided to re-design my portfolio. And no, the irony isn’t lost on me that my mind is still focused on the look of things. I’ve just re-routed the means and the end goal to be a marketable skill.
In creative fields (and other fields that use the mind as the main tool), there’s no ‘top’ to reach because imagination is endless and always growing.

A few years ago, I would have thought that would be disheartening, but now, it’s encouraging to know there’s no disappointment at the top and the journey will never end. 

A man’s reach should exceed his grasp. – Robert Browning